Saturday, March 16, 2013

Where I met Jesus, became my first step of faith.....

Anything is possible  with Jesus and where you or I meet him only He knows the appointed time and how he will  introduce himself to you. For me, it was when I was around 9 or 10 years old and it came in the form of a dog. A dog named snoopy.We had a dog named snoopy, he was my best friend and I loved him dearly. I spent a lot of my time with him and he always welcomed me with unconditional love,  affection, and he was always available to listen to me no matter what it was I needed to talk about.  His door to his dog house was always open for me to enter. But one day all that changed, my mother had decided to go to nursing school and felt that we needed to find snoopy a home, that was one thing I just couldn't understand.. and I cried out why? why do we have to find snoopy a home...He was a good dog, he didn't do anything wrong. Why does he have to go away? This my my first experience of grief,  heart break, and an unbearable pain! But it was also my first personal experience of Jesus hearing my prayer, feeling my pain, seeing my tears and performing a miracle before my eyes.Then the day came that we were to take snoopy to his new home, I can remember sitting in the back seat of the car holding him and crying, telling him I loved him so much. Even to this day, as I write this,  I still feel that sadness and it brings tears to my eyes.I don't ever remember saying good bye to him, but only that I loved him and I would miss him. After, leaving him with this woman, I sat in the back seat it silence trying to understand why this happened. And when we got home, I felt in my heart there was only one place for me to go. It wasn't snoopy's dog house because he wasn't there anymore, it was the partially finished basement of our new home. We would always call this room the "red room", because it had red carpet and a red velvet sofa. I got down on my knees in front of the red sofa and I began to pray, a pray that came straight from my heart. I remember that prayer to this day, I told the Lord what had happened to snoopy and I asked Him to please bring snoopy back, that I knew only He could do what I was asking! This moment of prayer became my first step in faith and trusting the Lord heard my prayer,and would answer it.I got up from my knees and I never spoke a word about my conversation with Jesus with anyone. I just believed He heard me and He would bring snoopy home. Three days later I can remember the telephone ringing and listening to my mom speak to the person on the other end. I knew this conversation was about snoopy. When my mother hung up the phone she said we have to go get snoopy, the woman told her he barks all day but not at night and her husband works a night job and needs to sleep during the day. I will never forget the joy I felt that day and the thankfulness I felt in my heart that Jesus heard my prayer and answered it in 3 days! For me, my first experience of the Lord's kindness, and mercy was also, my first experience of seeing the Lord perform a miracle before my eyes! Snoopy came come and lived a long life with our family! As, I am writing this, for first time I see more than Jesus answering my prayer and seeing my first miracle of how powerful the Lord is and how He can do anything, anything if we just believe and don't  lose our hope  walk in faith! Jesus introduced himself to me at a young age in the form of a dog (A basset hound).  I see how how the Lord was and still is ...always welcomed me with unconditional love,  affection, and he was always available to listen to me no matter what it was I needed to talk about.  And His door was always open for me to enter! And that when we ask for anything in prayer we just have to believe and never doubt that He will answer in His appointed time. And the "red room" was the place that brought Jesus and i together. Just like the  blood of Jesus,  the place where we are no longer separated from Jesus but joined to Him!The place we become one with Him and the place we enter to live our life with and for  Him and the place we become apart of His family. The partially finished basement was the place Jesus laid for 3 days and on the third day He rose from the dead and set the captives free. Snoopy was set free on the third day and came home to live with us. Just recently , I was told I gave up everything (a personal family relationship) for how I felt a dog was being treated. But for me,  a dog is what  the Lord used in my life to introduce me to Him, to tech me about walking in faith, and to perform a miracle before my own eyes Luke 14:26-27, 33 "If anyone comes to Me, and does not hate his own father and mother and wife and children and brothers and sisters, yes, and even his own life, he cannot be My disciple.  Whoever does not carry his own cross and come after Me cannot be My disciple ... So likewise, whoever of you does not forsake all that he has cannot be My disciple." Jesus is not teaching a new commandment of hating people. He is teaching about the cost of following Him. I did not know this teaching when I was 9 but through my journey with Jesus He has taught me this and what I was willing to give up brought me closer to Him. His mercy, grace ...His Love and a hope for an eternal life with Him!The Lords says, (Matthew 16:24-26)Then Jesus said to His disciples, "If anyone wishes to come after Me, he must deny himself, and take up his cross and follow Me. "For whoever wishes to save his life will lose it; but whoever loses his life for My sake will find it.  "For what will it profit a man if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul? Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?Father, let me lose my life for your sake not mine!  Today, I realize that sometimes we are called to leave even our closes relationships with those we love to follow Jesus! It is part of our journey with Jesus!  And this is where it begins, for the Lords says, - John 3:16 "For God so loved the world, that He gave His only begotten Son, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish, but have eternal life."

Saturday, April 14, 2012

CHAPTER 30 - The powerful word of "Choice"

The powerful word of "Choice"

The Lord once showed me how powerful the word "Choice" is… for you "Choose" salvation!
Jesus offers His free gift of salvation and it is our choice to accept.
For the Lord says,
Deuteronomy 30:19
"Today I have given you the choice between life and death, between blessings and curses. Now I call on heaven and earth to witness the choice you make. Oh, that you would choose life, so that you and your descendants might live!

Revelation 3:20 says,
'Behold, I stand at the door and knock; if anyone hears My voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and will dine with him, and he with Me.

Today, I pray you choose life and when you hear His voice you open the door that He may come in to your heart and your life! This will be where your journey with Jesus will begin!

Friday, April 13, 2012

CHAPTER 29 - This journey is not over!

This journey is not over…

It is a journey that I still travel today. A journey of asking, seeking, listening, learning, obeying, trusting, confessing and repenting of my sins.
A journey full of His faithfulness,
His forgiveness, His mercy, His grace and a life that will leads to an eternal life with Him!
It is a journey we choose to travel, when we search for Jesus.
A journey when we find Him, we never what to let go!
A journey we will never travel alone, for He is with us!
A journey out of darkness and into His light!
A journey that will become your relationship with Jesus!

Matthew 7:7- 8 says,
"Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives; he who seeks finds; and to him who knocks, the door will be opened."

Thursday, April 12, 2012

CHAPTER 28 - What I tell you in darkness

What I tell you in darkness

Matthew 10:27 says
"What I tell you in darkness speak in the light and what you hear whispered in your ear proclaim upon the housetop"
That is what this journey with Jesus is all about. To proclaim to everyone that reads it, what the Lords has told me in my darkness to speak in the light.
I believe it is time we all start proclaiming to one another what the Lord has told us in our darkness, and that we may speak it in the light and what He has whispered in our ear we may proclaim it upon the house top for everyone to hear!
Whatever you may be going through proclaim it to everyone in the light. And what the Lord has whispered in your ear proclaim it for all to hear!!

Wednesday, April 11, 2012

CHAPTER 27 - Don't leave your legacy to chance

Don’t leave your legacy to chance

I wanted to share with you what led me to share my journey with Jesus with you.
In 2007, I attended a women’s Christian retreat called Tres Dias. At the retreat a woman gave me a journal with several scriptures on the cover and some words of encouragement. On that cover there was one statement that stood out to me and never left my heart or mind.
That statement was:
Don’t leave your legacy to chance!
I did not really understand what this meant. My first thought was; what legacy? Later, I looked up the word legacy: it means… inheritance. Then I began to think; what inheritance will I have to leave when I am gone? I had no stored treasure, nor had I acquired silver or gold. And then the Lord showed me, my inheritance is Him! What I have to leave is this story about Jesus and what He did in my life and what He can do in yours. This is what moved within my Spirit and led me to share this story about Jesus.

Jesus is our inheritance and He is our legacy!
Jesus is your inheritance!
1 Peter 1:3-4
Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who according to His great mercy has caused us to be born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, to obtain an inheritance which is imperishable and undefiled and will not fade away, reserved in heaven for you,

Acts 3:6
But Peter said, I do not possess silver and gold but what I do have I give to you, In the name of Jesus Christ the Nazarene, walk"

Tuesday, April 10, 2012

CHAPTER 26 -Safe within His love

Safe within His love
"Whoever told you, you could be perfect?"
This is the question the Lord asked me this morning! A question, which would call me to repentance from a sin that I was not even aware of and set me free from another lie from Satan, a lie based on fear and bondage. But this time it was the fear of failing and disappointing the Lord. I had come to believe that being perfect meant I could live a life without sin and this could be accomplished in my own strength by isolating me from the world. Let me explain, I have been working on this book for 7 months now. Although, this book came available to buy in April, it wasn’t finish! My flesh wanted to hurry and finish, so that I could say I did it but the truth is it wasn’t complete! The Lord showed this to me by every proof I ordered and every proof I read there were mistakes in grammar, in spelling but most importantly a message from the Lord! This message, that I needed to hear for myself so that I could ask for forgives and repent of this sin. It wasn’t until I received this third proof, that the Lord revealed this to me.
And it all started with the cover of this book being changed and incorrect.
So, this weekend I sat down and began to read every page. One particular chapter of this book stood out to me.
The chapter called "Control".
Through this chapter the Lord revealed something about my life today and how I was living it.
The Lord showed me that I went from trying to pad my walls and my surrounding too actually living in padded walls and an isolated life, a life away from everyone and everything. But this time is was not from the fear of being hurt but from the fear of sinning and failing God. I had come to believe another lie from Satan. A lie that said if you stay away from living you will not sin. As, I thought about this question the Lord asked me this morning, the Lord revealed to me the truth and this thought I had come to live that I could be perfect if I would just live a life without sin was exactly what Satan thought! Oh how I prayed for the Lord to forgive me for listening and living in such a lie. We will never be without sin for we are all sinners!
For the Lord says,
Romans 3:10 says
"There is none righteous, not even one."

Romans 3:23 says
"… for all have sinned and fall short of the glory of God."

Yes, the Lord tells us in His word that we are to be perfect

Matthew 5:48
"Therefore you are to be perfect, as your Heavenly Father is perfect."
But what the Lord has shown me is being perfect does not mean I will be without sin in my life.
The Lord says in His word,
1 John 1:8
"if we say that we have no sin we are deceiving ourselves and the truth is not in us. If we confess our sins, He is faithful and righteous to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness."
That day, I asked the Lord to forgive me for this sin and how I am so sorry for trying to live an isolated life so that I would have no sin in my life, for I was only deceiving myself!
I will tell you this, God word is so true, no matter how hard I tried to pad my walls and my surrounding, I always failed and always sinned.
We are all sinners, this is the whole reason Jesus came, to die on the cross, and shed his blood for the washing of our sins. The Lord is the final sacrifice for our sins!
What the Lord also showed me was I had put my trust in myself and I had made my flesh my strength. For the Lord says in His word:
Jeremiah 17:5
"Thus says the Lord, cursed is the man who trust in mankind. And makes flesh his strength…
How blessed we are to have His salvation, His forgiveness, His mercy, His grace, His covering and a chance to repent of our sins.
God is so good!
To repent means to change and to turn away from our sins.
The Lord used this book to reveal to me my sin and my sin that was ever before Him. So that, I would know the truth and be set free!
For the Lord says in John 8:31-32
…" If you abide in My word, then you are truly disciples of Mine; and you shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free."
My life cover was just like this third book proof cover, incorrect and wrong!
See, my life and how I was trying to make the cover of my life perfect (thinking I could live a life without sin) needed to be corrected and changed with the truth and the only truth is the word of God.
Thank you Jesus for all that you are today, yesterday and tomorrow, please forgive me and make me new through the power of your Holy Spirit, for without you I am nothing. I ask now that you live your life thru me for all to see and that You, Oh Lord, may be glorified! Oh Father, change my cover! I ask this in your Holy precious name, in Jesus Christ name I pray!

Monday, April 9, 2012

CHAPTER 25- Speaking from Spirit

Speaking from Spirit About 21 years ago, the Lord brought a woman into my life named Joni. The Lord used Joni to teach me so much about Him and me. I truly enjoyed every moment I had with her for she spoke life and the only life there is the word of God! I can recall one evening, Joni came over and she began to share with me everything that the Lord had laid upon her heart to tell me. I didn’t want the night to end, more importantly I didn’t want our time with Jesus to be over. I pleaded with Joni to stay the night and she did. We continued to talk about the Lord and read his word until the earlier morning hours. I could see Joni was getting tired, she even told me she was tired and needed to rest. I remember asking Joni just one more question and to this day I will never forget her response. Joni said to me, Kelly if I answer your question now I would be answering it out of my flesh and not from spirit. And that is all she had to say! What the Lord showed me that night through Joni, was recognize when we are speaking from spirit and when we are speaking from flesh! For our words are life and death.
 Proverbs 18:21
"Death and Life are in the power of the tongue"


2 Timothy 2:16
"But avoid worldly and empty chatter, for it will lead to further ungodliness and their talk will spread like gangrene…

Matthew 12:36-37
"And I say to you, that every careless word that men shall speak, they shall render account for it in the day of judgment. For by your words you shall be justified and by your words you shall be condemned."

Galatians 5:16-17
"But I say, walk by the Spirit and you will not carry out the desires of the flesh. For the flesh sets its desire against the Spirit, and Spirit against the flesh; for they are in opposition to one another, so that you may not do the things that you please."

Joni would always say to me; think about how much time you spend feeding your flesh and how much time you spend feeding your Spirit. Feed your Spirit more (the word of God) so that your spirit will become stronger than your flesh! I am so thankful to the Lord for bringing Joni into my life, even if it was just for a season.
A season I will never forget!

Sunday, April 8, 2012

CHAPTER 24 -Hearing His Voice

Hearing His voice

I have heard people say that they cannot hear Jesus’ voice or that the Lord does not speak to us with an audible voice. But He does speak!
All through the Bible God spoke with an audible voice. He spoke then and He speaks now.
For the Lord is never changing.
Malachi 3:6 says,
"For I, the Lord do not change;…
I truly believe to hear His voice we must have a desire to hear Him and ears willing to listen.
I would like to share with you some of the times, when I heard His voice.

"It will never be received until it is asked"
When I heard His voice speak these words, it was after a telephone conversation with my sister. At the time my sister was telling something that she was going through and I wanted to give her godly advice to help her through but she did not want to hear what I was trying to share with her. Needless to say the conversation turned lifeless and ended, with her hanging up the phone on me.
As I sat on the edge of my bed feeling disappointed, I heard the Lord say, Kelly you know, she never asked. I replied you are right she didn’t ask.
Then the Lord said to me, it will never be received until it is asked!
This is so true, nothing is received until we ask and nothing is found until we seek and doors are not opened until we knock!
Matthew 7:8 says
"For everyone who asks receives, and he who seeks finds, and to him who knocks it shall be opened"

"Watch your head!"
One night at the dinner table I was listening to a family member talk about their beliefs and their religion. As, I was listening to their words, words that I didn’t believe for myself, I nodded my head forwards and back as if I were saying "yes".
Then I heard the Lord say "watch your head"!
When I went home that evening thinking about what the Lord had told me, He explain to me about, being careful of what I agree with and what I agree with someone else.
Let me explain, the Lord was telling me that even though I did not say "yes" verbally, I was saying "yes" nonverbally (with my head). He was telling me to be careful in my conversation with others on what I agree and what I don’t agree.
Matthew 18:18 says
"Truly, I say to you whatever you shall bind on earth shall be bound in heaven; and whatever you loose on earth shall be loosed in heaven"

"It is not where you live but how you live"
Just recently the Lord, spoke these words to me.
It is not WHERE you live but HOW you live! It doesn’t matter where we live but rather how we live and how we live for the Lord that is most important!
Luke 9:58
And Jesus said to him, "The foxes have holes, and the birds of the air have nest, but the Son of man has nowhere to lay His head."

Saturday, April 7, 2012

CHAPTER 23 -Hand in Hand

Hand in hand
By the time my travels with Bonnie had come to an end, she asked me to draw a picture of how I see my relationship with Jesus. That day I drew a picture of Jesus and me walking: hand in hand, side by side.
On this journey with Jesus, I know that there are times He goes before me, times when He stand beside me, and times when He carries me!
This is the first scripture the Lord showed me when everything began!
Jeremiah 31:3- 4 says
"The Lord appeared to him from afar, saying,
"I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore I have drawn you with loving kindness.
"Again I will build you, and you shall be rebuilt …
Today, when I was writing this scripture from the Bible, I noticed the word "Drawn" which comes from the word "draw" and I thought, just think the Lords drawing of you and me
is with loving kindness! How beautiful!

Friday, April 6, 2012

CHAPTER 22- Whenever I ....

Whenever I…

What the Lord has shown me through theses panic attack is they come from fear. For me, this fear would come:
Whenever I, looked at my circumstances,
and took my eyes off the Lord in the midst of my storm.
Matthew 14:29-33 says "And He said, "Come", and Peter got out of the boat, and walked on the water and came towards Jesus. But seeing the wind he became afraid, and beginning to sink, he cried out, saying, Lord, " Save Me", And immediately Jesus stretched out His hand and took hold of him, and said to him, " O you of little faith, why did you doubt?"
Whenever I try to be in control rather than letting God be in control.
For the Lord is in control!
It is here, that I need to learn to surrender all of me to the Lord, knowing that He works all things for good.
Romans 8:28. "And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are called according to his purpose."
Whenever, I put my trust in myself and man rather than the Lord.
For the Lords tells us in His word
Proverbs 3:5 says
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight"

Psalm 118:8 says
"It is better to take refuge in the Lord than to trust in man"

Jeremiah 17:5
Thus says the Lord, "Cursed is the man who trust in mankind
And makes flesh his strength, And whose heart turns away from the Lord."

Whenever I go past today and look towards tomorrow. A place I call,
What if Land
The Lord is not in what if land, He is in today!
For His word tells us: Matthew 6:34 says
"Therefore do not be anxious for tomorrow; for tomorrow will care for itself. Each day has enough troubles of its own."
Whenever I, choose to walk in my flesh and not in spirit…
For the Lord says in His word:
1 Peter 3:18 says
" For Christ also died for sins once for all, the just for the unjust, so that He might bring us to God, having been put to death in the flesh, but made alive in the spirit …"
Whenever I, live in my circumstance…
Recently, my mother was listening to a sermon by Chuck Swindoll called "Celebrating God".
In his message he said,
If you live in your circumstances you will never, never celebrate God!
This statement moved me to realize that whenever I do live in my circumstances, I am allowing Satan to rob me of my joy in the Lord. And I am missing the celebration of God!