Countenance …

I so dreaded the evenings because it was then that I struggled the most with panic attacks! They became frequent unwanted guest, so frequent that I could set an alarm to the time of there arrival, always between 3:00 am and 4:00am. I would try so often to stay awake, like a soldier in battle lying in wait for the enemy to attack. But on one particular evening, I had no strength for the coming battle and I fell asleep. At about 2:50am in the morning, I felt this gentle brush, like the wing of an angel flow across my face. I awoke and I heard the Lord say “Countenance”!

I repeated back the word but with a question mark because I didn’t know what this word meant. I immediately arose from my bed and grabbed my Bible and my pocket dictionary. I often use my dictionary to look up the words in the Bible that I didn’t understand. And went into another room, I got down on my knees and began to pray, I asked the Lord what does this word “countenance” mean? The Lord showed me Genesis 4:6-7 “…and why has your countenance fallen?” I then opened my dictionary to look up this word and found that it meant the expression of your face. Then the Lord told me “only He is all knowing!” He said satan can not read our minds but he watches the expression on your face. My countenance had become fear. Fear of the night and fear of the panic attacks! It was here that the Lord began to change my countenance!

2 Corinthians 4:6 “For God, who said, "Let light shine out of darkness," made his light shine in our hearts to give us the light of the knowledge of the glory of God in the face of Christ.”