Unconditional Love
I can recall, the first time that I truly felt unconditional love! It was in one of my therapy sessions with Bonnie, we were talking about forgiveness and on how to forgive and why we forgive. I understood that for people I needed to forgive but I did not realize that that same forgiveness that we are to give others also applies to ourselves. We also need to forgive ourselves. This was so difficult for me to do because I could not forgive myself for all the things that I had done, and I had a hard time understanding how the Lord could forgive me.So sitting with Bonnie I began to tell her everything about me and the terrible things I had done. I started confessing all my sins!
The Lord tells us in His word:
James 5:16 says “Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another, so that you may be healed”
And at that very moment, all the years of un forgiveness I had for myself poured out like a flood. As I sat there crying, I began to feel afraid because I realized that I had just told Bonnie everything about me. And my thoughts began to turn to
fear. I began to fear that she was going to think so differently of me or that I deserve whatever I was going through. And all my thoughts of fear, rejection, and abandonment came just as quick as the tears. But as quickly as these thought of fear appeared so did the Lord!
At that very moment the Lord showed me what His love and forgiveness feels like. Bonnie got up from her seat came and sat down beside me, she wrapped her arms around me and began to rock me as a mother rocks a child to comfort
them. I just cried and for the first time in my life, I had experienced the Lords unconditional love and His forgiveness.
This feeling and experience stays with me always! 1Cor.13:8 “Love never fails”
I can recall, the first time that I truly felt unconditional love! It was in one of my therapy sessions with Bonnie, we were talking about forgiveness and on how to forgive and why we forgive. I understood that for people I needed to forgive but I did not realize that that same forgiveness that we are to give others also applies to ourselves. We also need to forgive ourselves. This was so difficult for me to do because I could not forgive myself for all the things that I had done, and I had a hard time understanding how the Lord could forgive me.So sitting with Bonnie I began to tell her everything about me and the terrible things I had done. I started confessing all my sins!
The Lord tells us in His word:
James 5:16 says “Therefore, confess your sins to one another, and pray for one another, so that you may be healed”
And at that very moment, all the years of un forgiveness I had for myself poured out like a flood. As I sat there crying, I began to feel afraid because I realized that I had just told Bonnie everything about me. And my thoughts began to turn to
fear. I began to fear that she was going to think so differently of me or that I deserve whatever I was going through. And all my thoughts of fear, rejection, and abandonment came just as quick as the tears. But as quickly as these thought of fear appeared so did the Lord!
At that very moment the Lord showed me what His love and forgiveness feels like. Bonnie got up from her seat came and sat down beside me, she wrapped her arms around me and began to rock me as a mother rocks a child to comfort
them. I just cried and for the first time in my life, I had experienced the Lords unconditional love and His forgiveness.
This feeling and experience stays with me always! 1Cor.13:8 “Love never fails”
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